{ Monday, June 16, 2008 }

Some charming things about my father

A day late:

  • His friends used to call him Bog Pete, because, when hiking, he always managed to lead them into bogs.
  • He can play "5 foot 2, Eyes of Blue" on the ukulele.
  • Every night, or almost every night, for years and years, at bedtime, he would tell my sister and I stories of two small, 6 inch girls, who confronted threatening villains such as The Man In The Orange Pants, and rescued Kings of the Kingdom of Mice, assisted by fairies such as Mariposa Thistlebank.
  • He used to talk to our dog, Dante, in a made up dog language, (Ogawogga oggle wop diddy woog woog wah wah jiggy pip pip...) and Dante always talked back to him, (Awooo!)
  • There is a guy in his high school yearbook named Neptune Bloodstone Smythe III.
  • He quit his PhD in English Literature circa 1972 to concentrate on earning a living and raising children, resumed it after retiring at age 55, and quit again. Annoyingly, post structuralism, the Death of the Author, and the Extinction of the Master Narrative had occurred in the intervening years.
  • When driving a carpool for my Brownie troop, he forgot to pick up one of the girls, so the next time, my mother provided him with a list. He forgot me, because I wasn't on the list.
  • He was once known for wearing white bucks.
  • He insists that, even though the needle on the tank is below the E, you can go 80 miles on fumes. He has never been the one in the car when it runs out of gas.
  • He has big teeth and 100-watt smile.

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{ Saturday, June 14, 2008 }

Even if you can't

Even if you can't shape your life the way you want,
at least you can try as much as you can
not to degrade it
by too much contact with the world,
by too much activity and talk

Do not degrade it by dragging it along
taking it around and exposing it so often
to the daily silliness
of social relations and parties,
until it comes to seem a boring hanger-on

-- C.P. Cavafy

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{ Friday, May 2, 2008 }

Little Infinite Poem

To take the wrong road
is to arrive at the snow,
and to arrive at the snow
is to get down on all fours for centuries and eat the cemetery grass.

To take the wrong road
is to arrive at woman
woman who isn't afraid of light,
woman who murders two roosters in one second,
light which isn't afraid of roosters,
and roosters who don't know how to sing on top of the snow.

But if the snow chooses the wrong heart
then it might meet the wind from the south,
and since the air cares nothing for groans,
we will have to get down on all fours again and eat the cemetery grass.

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Since women fear light,
and light trembles before roosters,
and roosters only fly above the snow --
we will have to eat the cemetery grass forever.

-- Federico Garcia Lorca

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{ Monday, April 21, 2008 }

Best album of all time?

So far, my quizzees have answered:

  • Swans are Dead
  • Blue
  • Pet Sounds
  • My Aim is True

Mine? Loveless.

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{ Sunday, April 20, 2008 }

Notes from Dante in Love
  • Dante originally called The Divine Comedy "Vision"
  • T.S. Eliot said people stay in Hell only because they cannot change
  • The Latin word for "knowledge" sapientia, means the distinctions of the tongue, taste
  • In the early 1300s, businesses establish themselves, taking the name "company" which literally means "with bread": companie
  • Memory palaces. "The terrifying gargoyles of the cathedral at Chartres and the monstrous designs unfurling on manuscript pages like the Book of Kells are often considered evidence for the tortured psychology of medievals. In fact, these might just be examples of men following classical rules of medieval memory arts" - Frances Yates.
  • Everything from Gothic cathedrals to Byzantine miniatures, Carlovingian ivories and Romanesque capitals tried to be an encyclopedic memory palace of images, intended to teach a populace that could not read and further persuade those who could. (p. 88)
  • No creature naturally emits a good smell, writs Theophrastus, except for the panther
  • "Sailing and transgressing: these are companion ideas since ancient ties. They suggest ambition is a kind of wandering, and something more: that life can be lived fully only by means of things that can be fatal to it....In a post-Freudian word we say the destiny we can will into being is not the destiny we want." (p. 117)
  • "Existence is endurable only as an aesthetic fact." - Richard Rorty

And Hadrian's poem to his soul:

Animula, vagula, blandula
Hospes comesque corporis!
Quae nunc abibis
In loca, pallidula, frigida nudula
Nec ut soles dabis iocos?

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{ Wednesday, April 16, 2008 }

Neutral Milk Hotel Review

It's been almost exactly 10 years since I wrote this review of Neutral Milk Hotel's album In The Aeroplane Over The Sea. 10 years! That album hasn't meant any less to me after all this time. The review could have used a good editor; I'm an incorrigible putter-inner who relies on the help of a strict taker-outer. But it still got halfway to expressing the way music makes you feel like you've just fallen in love, or witnessed a miracle or are living in a poem. Not bad, old self, not bad.

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{ Tuesday, April 15, 2008 }

The use of moods

Aw, thank you sweet people for worrying about my being sad. A few books and I was good as new pale green spring grass. It was just a mood. From the Anne Carson I was reading yesterday:

He hugged his overcoat closer and tried to assemble in his mind Heidegger's argument about the use of moods.
We would think ourselves continuous with the world if we did not have moods.
It is state-of-mind that discloses to us
(Heidegger claims) that we are beings who have been thrown into something else.

Today was a fantastic day. So many good things happened.

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{ Monday, April 14, 2008 }

In The Woods by Tana French

In the woods

I almost missed a couple of meetings because of this book, promising myself I'd leave the house and get downtown, but unable to force myself to stop reading, even starting a new chapter over the cries my Inner German screaming you're late, you're late. It's a good book, a thriller.

In The Woods is about two detectives on a case regarding a murdered child, eerily similar to a murder that happened 20 years earlier on the same spot, involving the detective Rob Ryan at the same age. The book circles around Ryan's relationship with his partner Cassie Maddox, the various suspects, scoundrels and psychopaths they encounter in their work, and, of course, solving the crime. It's a literary thriller with just the right amount of prosiness and just the right amount of plot. And is a great panegyric to the platonic male-female relationship, a girl-boy buddy/police partnership.

There was a Nabokovian moment of reader-taunting after the killer was revealed that annoyed the hell out of me, but besides that, In The Woods is beach or subway or just plain armchair reading par excellence. And the cover is rad.

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{ Sunday, April 13, 2008 }

Book reviews

I just went back and read all these old book reviews I wrote 3-5 years ago, and the rest going back to 2000. I'm in New York and sad and broken and missing my bed and dogs and friends and library and so I went to the bookstore and bought paperback copies of three of my favorite books, Invisible Cities, Jesus' Son, and Autobiography of Red. A cup of tea plus words I'd read so many times before and my soul felt warm and wooly and home, even without the dogs and slippers, and housed as it is in this banal IKEA-furnished apartment on the Upper West Side.

I started photographing the books I've read, but realize now I should take the time to write them up again, if only because the palest ink is better than the strongest memory, a Chinese proverb I'm fond of. To have read a book, and to have gained something from it, and to be able recover that something years later is like sending gifts to your future self. So I'll start with a brief blurb about In The Woods, while it's still clear in my memory.

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New Ending:
All over the world the beautiful red breezes went on blowing hand
in hand.

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{ Wednesday, April 9, 2008 }

Notes from Deep Economy
  • All primates live in groups and "an isolated individual will repeatedly pull a lever with no reward other than the glimpse of another monkey." (Richard Layard)
  • Medieval cities usually had about 20,000 people, divided into four quarters, with a church in the center, each quarter having its own shops and schools, but everything within easy walking distance. (Jeremy Rifkin, The European Dream)
  • In 1900 the state of Iowa had 1300 local opera houses. "Thousands of tenors earned adequate, if modest, livings performing before live audiences." (Robert Frank, Luxury Fever)
  • The Gini coefficient was developed by economists to measure inequality. US is .40, China is .45, Japan is .25.

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{ Monday, April 7, 2008 }

Presocratic Philosophy

Thales, a Presocratic philosopher, thought that, contrary to appearances and common sense, the world was composed of water, while Heraclitus thought it was composed of fire.

Gleaned from my Intellectual Devotional.

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Daniel Taylor on Change

Change doesn't happen because of how we invest our money. Change happens because of how we invest our human energy, and it always has since we came down from the trees. Everyone's got a margin of discretionary energy -- ten percent, twenty percent -- that isn't used up making their way in the world. That's the energy that's available for social change.

Taylor runs a non-profit called Future Generations, which I read about in Deep Economy, where it says that the crucial document in their development programs isn't a budget, or a plan of what they are going to achieve in the next five years, but a work plan that details what the next project the community is going to tackle, and the steps required to make it happen.

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{ Thursday, March 27, 2008 }

Collaborative Crossword Puzzling on Flickr

Flickr

Click through to the Flickr page to see the notes.

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{ Monday, March 24, 2008 }

Lyn Cowan on Mentalspeak. In her essay Feeding the psyche, Junk words and corn-fed music, psychologist Lyn Cowan attacks the meaningless language of psychology, lacking depth and significance, words such as addiction, dysfunctional, relationship, boundary, depression, personal growth, abuse, wellness, wholeness, positive, negative, appropriate, sexuality, spirituality. She calls this "mentalspeak."

Consider the mentalspeak word "issue". "Issue" is an all-purpose word that has replaced several other words, such as dilemma, conflict, quandary, confusion, mess. What did people have before they had issues? How did we talk to each other about our blind confusions, our heart-stopping fears, sweet hopes, crippling loses and hot-blooded enthusiasms before we started calling everything an "issue"? I saw an advertisement in one of my local newspapers a few weeks ago offering counseling for "grief issues". What if I only had the grief, and not the issue?

Mentalspeak words deny or minimize depth, complexity and intensity of feeling. Worse than having an issue, is having an "issue around." She's got some gems in there. "I'm not comfortable with the idea of genocide" for example. "I have a lot of anger" instead of, well I'm mad as hell.

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